The post too long for Instagram.

I was going to just post this to Instagram. Then when I started rambling found it was just too long.

Right I’m going to just say it. I’m suffering with depression of late. Im struggling.

When my mood is low I reach for the crap food. My nemesis is cake! I could if left probably demolish all of these in one day. I know that eating crap makes you feel crap and then yo feel crap so reach for the cakes. It’s a vicious circle and I’m quite deep into it.

Since having my gallbladder out I’ve put 2 stone on! I’m not proud. I’m disgusted to be honest.

Why am I feeling like this?

Well I blame the kids constantly But truth is is my fault.

The house is a mess and I don’t give enough time for things so am constantly running behind.

The kids behaviour is probably like it is due to me feeling like I do. Due to me not giving them enough time.

I tried to homeschool but I’m not cut out for it.

I get shouty when they don’t grasp something and it’s no good for anyone.

Right now I’m secretly waiting for September to come so I can get into a better routine with everyone.

I also know this isn’t good waiting for tomorrow. And all that. But it’s the only light I feel I have at the moment.

Thanks for listening to my rant.

What’s your go to when you feel low?

Nina x