The post too long for Instagram.

I was going to just post this to Instagram. Then when I started rambling found it was just too long.

Right I’m going to just say it. I’m suffering with depression of late. Im struggling.

When my mood is low I reach for the crap food. My nemesis is cake! I could if left probably demolish all of these in one day. I know that eating crap makes you feel crap and then yo feel crap so reach for the cakes. It’s a vicious circle and I’m quite deep into it.

Since having my gallbladder out I’ve put 2 stone on! I’m not proud. I’m disgusted to be honest.

Why am I feeling like this?

Well I blame the kids constantly But truth is is my fault.

The house is a mess and I don’t give enough time for things so am constantly running behind.

The kids behaviour is probably like it is due to me feeling like I do. Due to me not giving them enough time.

I tried to homeschool but I’m not cut out for it.

I get shouty when they don’t grasp something and it’s no good for anyone.

Right now I’m secretly waiting for September to come so I can get into a better routine with everyone.

I also know this isn’t good waiting for tomorrow. And all that. But it’s the only light I feel I have at the moment.

Thanks for listening to my rant.

What’s your go to when you feel low?

Nina x

2 Comments

  1. Hey you are not alone…my house is also a mess, 3 baskets to iron, 3 on the stairs to put away, I cringe every time I walk passed them….BUT and this is a big BUT every day I create a to do list way too long it’s inachievable, so I try to turn it around and focus on what I have achieved that day…no matter how small and it does alter your thinking after a while I promise. Plus the key thing for me when I feel like that it to sit and notice how my body is feeling, is it tired ( mostly yes!) so I have a headache? Am I thirsty ( usually yes I’m crap at drinking water) and the best medicine every time for me no matter how much I don’t feel like it is getting out and just walking! Humans need to walk, it creates a kind of meditative state, just the rythym and the fresh air is so good for you and stops you looking at what needs to be done in the house!! And I’m sorry but this is going to sound like a telling off, stop trying to cram so much into your day! When I read your posts sometimes I think bldy hell how does she do all that?! And re the honeschooling as much as it sounds idylic in a lot of ways part of me was screaming ‘are you mad?!’ Only because I couldn’t figure how you’d fit that in or ever get any ‘kid free’ time again! So general thoughts are stop beating yourself up…we all feel like this at some points, focus on the things you have achieved, and walk as much as you can for feel good vibes… hope that helps and hope you feel better soon xxx

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    1. Thanks for my telling off. The kidsare off back to school soon. I’ve had to admit I was crazy to take on such a task. I totally agree about the walking. Just with 2 kids and pushchair not always easy. But once big kids return to school hopefully I can get out and about more. Xx

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